Hello!

Wow it has been a long while since I have even thought about posting a new blog, so here I go. Well even before I start writing anything, I don’t even know if anyone will even read this or know that I have posted a new blog. I know people knew when Miranda posted a new blog because they were use to checking hers daily because she was always updating it, but I haven't updated mine since February so maybe no one will even know this new blog exists. Oh well, it’s my fault for not keeping it updated regularly. Anyways I thought I would just write about stuff that is on my mind and happening in my life. If anyone does read this blog they probably were use to reading Miranda’s and probably knows or at least has an idea of what is going on in our life’s right now. It has been a real, real hard last month for my family and myself. I have been staying at my parents since the beginning of June to help sort through things in mine and Miranda life. What I have came to realize is that I'm a sinner that has only been able to survive in this life with what God has graciously given me by his grace and mercy. I have came to realize that nothing I have is really mine and that I don't have these things because I made it happen or was given it to because I did good things or deserved it. I have realized that a wife and family is not there for my enjoyment or your entertainment, but there because God loves you and blesses you with gifts directly from him because he loves you. I have realized what it means to be a true father, husband and provider. In fact the direct definition (in my mind at least) of a true father, husband and provider is nothing like what I thought it was or what I was doing or even what the world tells you is a true father, husband and provider. To me a true father, husband and provider is first a direct man of God who never deviates away from that or compromises God's word no matter what. He puts his family's needs why before his own and never expects anything in return. He works hard, but is also there for his family at a moments notice. He appreciates what his wife does on a daily basis and blesses her in return. A true man of God wakes up praising God and seeking his guidance everyday, that's a big one for me as I thought that I knew what was best for the day or that God knew I loved him and would guide me throughout the day even if I didn't ask him or even give him thanks for just another day. A true man is humbled daily and never ever takes credit for his gifts in his life. He is willing to give up ever thing on a moments notice to serve his Lord and listens to the people in his life (especially his wife) for guidance from the Lord as the Lord may be speaking to them differently than to him. He takes everything his wife has been is feeling, being impressed upon, doing or wants to be doing very seriously and heartfelt. A true man respects his wife and family as individuals and as one. He embraces the differences in their personalities and desires that be closer to them, not by making them be more like him, but by listen to them daily and understanding them more and more and growing closer to them instead of pushing them away. I have been tought a life time of things in really a pretty sort period of time. I would love to write more and share with everyone what I have been tought, but I don’t want to make this so long and no one wants to read it, if anyone even knows that this new blog exists:) One last thing that I do want to share is the absolute importance and need for a church family (thanks Miranda for helping me realize that). A church family is so important in so many ways. They are there for you in a time a need, they are there for you in a time of great joy and they genuinely love you and seek the best for you on a daily basis. They never give up on you, judge you or think differently of you when you make mistakes. What's so cool about a church family is that they are just like God, but in the human form down here on earth, I guess just like one big Jesus! Oh, just to add one more thing on what a true man of God is, is that fact that he lives daily in faith. That is also a big one for me. Faith is something that is talked about a lot, but I think very misunderstood and under appreciated. With out going in to great length, faith is not something you have or say you have it is something you do. Saying you have faith and actually living in faith and putting it into play in your life are two totally different things. To anyone out there reading this, you will know when your actually living your life by faith and totally committed to God 100%, not 99% but 100%. And just know that all it takes is just an ounce of faith and that is enough for God to work with, trust me I'm learning that daily.

Thanks
Sean