Hello out there!

How is everyone? It's been a while (almost 2 months). I can’t believe that it is fall already. Can’t really say that I'm too excited. It use to be my favorite time of year, but with everything going on in my life right now I can’t say I have a favorite time of year anymore, maybe I will again someday. The kids are back in school and loving it. I have the most wonderful children in the word, no really I do. For those of you that read this, if anyone does. You might not know but my wife decided to divorce and leave me after almost 10 years of marriage and 12 years of being together. It is really hard for me and I never thought that I would be spending the rest of my life without her. We had are rough times, but I always thought that God would keep us together, even if we didn't deserve it. I know he is still in control, but it is hard, very hard. I actually miss her very much, but there is nothing I can do about that. My family is pretty devastated and not sure what to do. Miranda was their daughter just as much as I'm their son. My parents loved and love her more than she will ever know. They always treated her as their daughter and always will. I admire them for that, not too many "in-laws" would do that. Even though the pain I feel is so excruciating, I would do it all over again just to have my babies. I will always remember the great times and vacations we had as a family, the birth of our kids and the memories of moving to our first real house and bringing Ally home to it. Those are wonderful and no one can ever take those memories away from me. I know that I need to keep going on with my life, but for right now it is not easy. Only God can provide what I need right now. Miranda's family has been great and actually I don’t think she has a clue to how much they love and miss her. Anyways, I better go. I'm sure I will write another blog sometime, maybe within 2 months this time ;).

PS
This is a verse I have tried to think about daily: Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths"

Also, I have had to try to understand and put into play the following in my life "let go and let God". Sometimes that easier said then done, but very necessary.