*QUICK UPDATE*

Hello out there. I thought I would just give a quick update. I have moved home! I can’t believe I’m finally home. 5 1/2 months of sleeping on a hide-a-bed at your parents is enough to kill ya. Being home is great and now the kids and I are just trying to get the house decorated for Christmas and settle in. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving. The kids and I ate like hogs. We spent the day over at my grandmother-in-laws. We had all kinds of food and it was very nice to see and talk to the whole extended family. On Saturday Gabby and I watched the Ducks destroy the Beavers with my Uncle-in-law Hector and Cousin Petey. We had lots of fun and Gabby had a good time playing computer games all afternoon. On Sunday Gabby and I spent most of the day helping my mother-in-law put up her Christmas lights and clean up her yard. Her house looks great, now it is my turn to get our house all decorated on the outside. We have a 2 story home and I hate heights. Maybe I can get Gabby or Zach to climb up there ;). Well I better go for now, take care and Merry Christmas everyone.

BTW
Today is mine and M's 10th anniversary. I didn't really think I would be spending it like this, nor wanted to, but God knew and he has a specific plan for everything. God’s ways are not always ours, but his will will always be done!

Please hear me!

Lord I want answers now. I miss my old life so bad. I have been living in limbo for 4 months. Please here my cries and prayers! I miss the worshiping of my wife, the home cooked meals, the family get-togethers and so on and so on, the list is eternal. If this is not God's will, which from his word says that it is absolutely not, especially after hearing Barry's message Sunday, then why does it keep going on. I need help and answers in a bad way. Lord can you hear me, I need you.

Lord also please talk to Miranda's heart and spirit. We are one flesh and my flesh is hurting really bad. Lord please be the glue and bridge between us that we need. Please send each one of us a sure sign this week that you are in control and that you are speaking to us. Miranda says that she has never heard you speak audibly to her, please do that this week Lord, I beg of you.

Lord you said: 1 John 5:14-15

14And this is the confidence (the assurance, the privilege of boldness) which we have in Him: [we are sure] that if we ask anything (make any request) according to His will (in agreement with His own plan), He listens to and hears us. 15And if (since) we [positively] know that He listens to us in whatever we ask, we also know [with settled and absolute knowledge] that we have [granted us as our present possessions] the requests made of Him.

Lord I know that my requests are according to your will (because my requests are directly from your word). Please hear them and work according to them. Lord I also know that your timing is not ours, but please work fast ;).

A Must See!

I went and saw the movie Fireproof this week and it is definitely a must see for anyone. It was very inspirational and encouraging no matter what marital status you are in. It will prepare you for future relationships, change your current one or just good you some good food for thought. I just have to say that I will "never leave my partner behind".

http://www.fireproofthemovie.com/

Only 2 weeks this time!

2 weeks is better than 2 months, right. Well it is October all ready and the weather is changing along with the leaves on the trees. Life is still as rough as can be, but my children and my faith keep me going daily. I haven't been home for almost 4 months now and my parent’s hide-a-bed is over 20 years old, but at least I have a place to lay my head down. I really miss my house and everything in it. I just want to go home so bad. I miss taking walks in my neighborhood, mowing my lawn and spending time dinking around in my garage. It is funny the little things you miss and appreciate when you don’t have them or lose them and the big things you thought you couldn't live without or didn’t want to live with out, you could give up in a second. Every day when I would come home from work Ally would greet me and say "daddies home, daddies home" she would then have to go find the rest of the family to make sure they knew I was home. I would give anything for that again. I have to go; this is too hard right now. I will write more later. God I need you!

Hello out there!

How is everyone? It's been a while (almost 2 months). I can’t believe that it is fall already. Can’t really say that I'm too excited. It use to be my favorite time of year, but with everything going on in my life right now I can’t say I have a favorite time of year anymore, maybe I will again someday. The kids are back in school and loving it. I have the most wonderful children in the word, no really I do. For those of you that read this, if anyone does. You might not know but my wife decided to divorce and leave me after almost 10 years of marriage and 12 years of being together. It is really hard for me and I never thought that I would be spending the rest of my life without her. We had are rough times, but I always thought that God would keep us together, even if we didn't deserve it. I know he is still in control, but it is hard, very hard. I actually miss her very much, but there is nothing I can do about that. My family is pretty devastated and not sure what to do. Miranda was their daughter just as much as I'm their son. My parents loved and love her more than she will ever know. They always treated her as their daughter and always will. I admire them for that, not too many "in-laws" would do that. Even though the pain I feel is so excruciating, I would do it all over again just to have my babies. I will always remember the great times and vacations we had as a family, the birth of our kids and the memories of moving to our first real house and bringing Ally home to it. Those are wonderful and no one can ever take those memories away from me. I know that I need to keep going on with my life, but for right now it is not easy. Only God can provide what I need right now. Miranda's family has been great and actually I don’t think she has a clue to how much they love and miss her. Anyways, I better go. I'm sure I will write another blog sometime, maybe within 2 months this time ;).

PS
This is a verse I have tried to think about daily: Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths"

Also, I have had to try to understand and put into play the following in my life "let go and let God". Sometimes that easier said then done, but very necessary.

Church!

Church was absolutely wonderful today. Barry had a great message and worship was beautiful. We sang perfect songs and the holly spirit was really in the building today. Anyone reading this blog out there I encourage you to come visit New Harvest, I think you will really enjoy it. We will be having out first Sunday service at the new church (the old First Baptist church on Portland rd, right next the I5) on August 31.

Barry thank you so much for everything you do and the man you are. You are such an incredible person and man of God. I know that God has everything in his control and I can’t begin to thank the church enough and what it means to have a church family and be involved in it.

God is good!

Sunday!

Today we had church at the Marion Co Fair and it was excellent. It was at a different location this time than the years past. It was at the main stage by all the food vendors right next to the LB Day Amphitheater. There was a big tent for us so it was nice being in the shade. The worship was amazing, but it was missing one very key/important thing ;) The songs were awesome, we sang about 6 of them and then Trevor sang one by himself and did awesome. The very last song that was sung was incredible. It is called Hold Me Jesus and Karis and Shane sang it together. They did great, but we should of had that key/important thing there for that song especially ;) Some of the parts of the song that I really liked were Oh sometimes my life just don’t make sense at all When the mountains look so big And my faith just seems so small. Surrender don't come natural to me I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want Than to take what You give that I need And I've beat my head against so many walls Now I'm falling down I'm falling on my knees. The whole song is great, I just really connected with those verses.

Remember that God is good and God is great. You can never go wrong when you fully submit and let him take control of every aspect of your life! Just remember he knows exactly what you need and when you need it. He knows what we need way more than what we think we need. Good thing because I would be sunk with out him.

PS
Everyone, even new people than before were wondering where the key/important thing was that was missing today. Just think about that one and the importance and genuiness of it.

Hello again!

Well not sure if anyone has read my updated blog yet, but that's okay, I think I will still go ahead and write another one just for the heck of it. Today is Friday and this weekend we are having church at the Marion Co Fair which should be a lot of fun and I'm really looking forward to it.

I wanted to write a little more on my walk with God and my faith. My lost post I talked about the importance of being a man of God in regards to your family and the importance of living in faith. Today I wanted to write about the importance of being in the word of GOD. To be honest I have never really enjoyed reading or had must of an interest in reading. I read everyday all day long at work and haven't had much of a desire to read when I'm at home. On occasion I would pick up the bible and read a little, but then get tired or something on TV would catch my eye and I ended up watching TV or falling asleep or doing something other then reading God's word. In fact I didn't really understand or comprehend the importance of reading his word. I really thought that just believing in Jesus, praying and going to church was good enough. I knew that I loved Jesus and generally wanted to obey him and do what I felt he wanted me to do. Since I have been staying at my parents I have been reading the bible a lot more and understanding the significance of reading the word daily, meditating on it and fully comprehending it, or at least trying to. My parents are avid readers of the bible and have really inspired me to read more. It is nice to be able to read in the bible and then have someone to talk to about it that has read it before and understands what it says. The real importance that I have found in being in God's word daily is the fact that it is the absolute truth and never deviates away from that or contradicts itself. We as humans can feel certain ways or even pray certain ways, but if it does not line up with the word of God than we are doing something wrong. The bible was not written for a select group of people that meet a certain profile or only pertains to certain situations in only certain peoples lives. No it is written for all of us and is the same as it has been and will always be. It doesn’t say well this pertains to you if x, y and z is going on in your life and if other certain things have happened or you have done things in your life or had things done to you in your life that it voids out his word and your an exemption to it. In fact it says the absolute opposite. The bible is written to everyone in all situations and never deviates from the truth no matter what. No one is an exemption to the word of God and that will never change. If the bible says one thing and you feel, pray or believe another than you are flat out wrong. The best thing I have done is if I'm praying for something and feeling some way about some thing and I line it up with the bible and the bible doesn’t not support my feelings or prayers than I'm doing something wrong and need to ask God to show me what I need to change so that it lines up with his word. Feeling, thoughts and even prayer if not done in accordance with God's word can be deceiving and flat out wrong and let me tell you I have had to learn that the hard way in many areas of my life. Be in the word daily and you can’t go wrong!

PS.
For all you men out there here is one that has been a huge issue with me "RESPECT". Men don’t live a life that demands respect from your spouse or family, live a life that commands it from the way that you live and the way you treat others. Genuine respect can only come from submitting to God and living your life the way he intended it. Just try it and see how your spouse starts to respect you more by the way you live your life and treat others. I bet she will!

Hello!

Wow it has been a long while since I have even thought about posting a new blog, so here I go. Well even before I start writing anything, I don’t even know if anyone will even read this or know that I have posted a new blog. I know people knew when Miranda posted a new blog because they were use to checking hers daily because she was always updating it, but I haven't updated mine since February so maybe no one will even know this new blog exists. Oh well, it’s my fault for not keeping it updated regularly. Anyways I thought I would just write about stuff that is on my mind and happening in my life. If anyone does read this blog they probably were use to reading Miranda’s and probably knows or at least has an idea of what is going on in our life’s right now. It has been a real, real hard last month for my family and myself. I have been staying at my parents since the beginning of June to help sort through things in mine and Miranda life. What I have came to realize is that I'm a sinner that has only been able to survive in this life with what God has graciously given me by his grace and mercy. I have came to realize that nothing I have is really mine and that I don't have these things because I made it happen or was given it to because I did good things or deserved it. I have realized that a wife and family is not there for my enjoyment or your entertainment, but there because God loves you and blesses you with gifts directly from him because he loves you. I have realized what it means to be a true father, husband and provider. In fact the direct definition (in my mind at least) of a true father, husband and provider is nothing like what I thought it was or what I was doing or even what the world tells you is a true father, husband and provider. To me a true father, husband and provider is first a direct man of God who never deviates away from that or compromises God's word no matter what. He puts his family's needs why before his own and never expects anything in return. He works hard, but is also there for his family at a moments notice. He appreciates what his wife does on a daily basis and blesses her in return. A true man of God wakes up praising God and seeking his guidance everyday, that's a big one for me as I thought that I knew what was best for the day or that God knew I loved him and would guide me throughout the day even if I didn't ask him or even give him thanks for just another day. A true man is humbled daily and never ever takes credit for his gifts in his life. He is willing to give up ever thing on a moments notice to serve his Lord and listens to the people in his life (especially his wife) for guidance from the Lord as the Lord may be speaking to them differently than to him. He takes everything his wife has been is feeling, being impressed upon, doing or wants to be doing very seriously and heartfelt. A true man respects his wife and family as individuals and as one. He embraces the differences in their personalities and desires that be closer to them, not by making them be more like him, but by listen to them daily and understanding them more and more and growing closer to them instead of pushing them away. I have been tought a life time of things in really a pretty sort period of time. I would love to write more and share with everyone what I have been tought, but I don’t want to make this so long and no one wants to read it, if anyone even knows that this new blog exists:) One last thing that I do want to share is the absolute importance and need for a church family (thanks Miranda for helping me realize that). A church family is so important in so many ways. They are there for you in a time a need, they are there for you in a time of great joy and they genuinely love you and seek the best for you on a daily basis. They never give up on you, judge you or think differently of you when you make mistakes. What's so cool about a church family is that they are just like God, but in the human form down here on earth, I guess just like one big Jesus! Oh, just to add one more thing on what a true man of God is, is that fact that he lives daily in faith. That is also a big one for me. Faith is something that is talked about a lot, but I think very misunderstood and under appreciated. With out going in to great length, faith is not something you have or say you have it is something you do. Saying you have faith and actually living in faith and putting it into play in your life are two totally different things. To anyone out there reading this, you will know when your actually living your life by faith and totally committed to God 100%, not 99% but 100%. And just know that all it takes is just an ounce of faith and that is enough for God to work with, trust me I'm learning that daily.

Thanks
Sean

2002 GMC YUKON DENALI XL FOR SALE!

I have a very nice SUV for sale. It is a 2002 black Yukon Denali XL, fully loaded, w/sunroof, tow package and a 6 disc CD changer. It has a 3rd row and seats up to 8 people. Less than 47K miles, that's less than 8k miles a year!

Let me know if your interested

Sean

PS
Check out KBB for a good idea of what this vehicle is worth.

Thanks

Lincoln Brewster!

Zach and I went to the Lincoln Brewster concert last night at Dayspring and had a blast. I have to say that it was the best concert I have ever been to, sorry James and P Diddy. My ears are still ringing. I told M that we will go see him again when he comes back to Oregon.

Been a while.

I haven't been too good at keeping this thing up. Here is a quick update. Christmas was good, except that Miranda and I both had Step. I got a wii, I mean the kids got a wii. I had prime rib on 2 different occasions this year :). I got Miranda some tickets to one of our favorite comedians that is coming to town in March. New years was uneventful, except for the prime rib. I got my truck fixed, kinda sideswiped a pole. Um, oh we are in the last step of getting a settlement for our siding, still don’t know how much. We will be taking a trip to Eastern Oregon shortly to check out some towns. Well I guess that is about it for now.

Later dudes