Crazy!

Hello everyone or anyone for that matter. I hope everyone's Holidays were good. Mine were interesting to say the least. Things are still crazy, but I have been making new friends and im enjoying some new relationships ;). A crazy thing is that someone hacked into my email account to apparently see who i have been talking with. Very interesting, especially since that someone is so happy now and could care less of me or what im doing. True colors I guess. Double standard maybe, one set of rules for her I mean them and another for everyone else, who knows and frankly who cares. Anyways, I better go now, big football game tonight.

PS
I just want to say that i have a new found interest in the nursing field, not the work, just the nurse ;)

*QUICK UPDATE*

Hello out there. I thought I would just give a quick update. I have moved home! I can’t believe I’m finally home. 5 1/2 months of sleeping on a hide-a-bed at your parents is enough to kill ya. Being home is great and now the kids and I are just trying to get the house decorated for Christmas and settle in. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving. The kids and I ate like hogs. We spent the day over at my grandmother-in-laws. We had all kinds of food and it was very nice to see and talk to the whole extended family. On Saturday Gabby and I watched the Ducks destroy the Beavers with my Uncle-in-law Hector and Cousin Petey. We had lots of fun and Gabby had a good time playing computer games all afternoon. On Sunday Gabby and I spent most of the day helping my mother-in-law put up her Christmas lights and clean up her yard. Her house looks great, now it is my turn to get our house all decorated on the outside. We have a 2 story home and I hate heights. Maybe I can get Gabby or Zach to climb up there ;). Well I better go for now, take care and Merry Christmas everyone.

BTW
Today is mine and M's 10th anniversary. I didn't really think I would be spending it like this, nor wanted to, but God knew and he has a specific plan for everything. God’s ways are not always ours, but his will will always be done!

Please hear me!

Lord I want answers now. I miss my old life so bad. I have been living in limbo for 4 months. Please here my cries and prayers! I miss the worshiping of my wife, the home cooked meals, the family get-togethers and so on and so on, the list is eternal. If this is not God's will, which from his word says that it is absolutely not, especially after hearing Barry's message Sunday, then why does it keep going on. I need help and answers in a bad way. Lord can you hear me, I need you.

Lord also please talk to Miranda's heart and spirit. We are one flesh and my flesh is hurting really bad. Lord please be the glue and bridge between us that we need. Please send each one of us a sure sign this week that you are in control and that you are speaking to us. Miranda says that she has never heard you speak audibly to her, please do that this week Lord, I beg of you.

Lord you said: 1 John 5:14-15

14And this is the confidence (the assurance, the privilege of boldness) which we have in Him: [we are sure] that if we ask anything (make any request) according to His will (in agreement with His own plan), He listens to and hears us. 15And if (since) we [positively] know that He listens to us in whatever we ask, we also know [with settled and absolute knowledge] that we have [granted us as our present possessions] the requests made of Him.

Lord I know that my requests are according to your will (because my requests are directly from your word). Please hear them and work according to them. Lord I also know that your timing is not ours, but please work fast ;).

A Must See!

I went and saw the movie Fireproof this week and it is definitely a must see for anyone. It was very inspirational and encouraging no matter what marital status you are in. It will prepare you for future relationships, change your current one or just good you some good food for thought. I just have to say that I will "never leave my partner behind".

http://www.fireproofthemovie.com/

Only 2 weeks this time!

2 weeks is better than 2 months, right. Well it is October all ready and the weather is changing along with the leaves on the trees. Life is still as rough as can be, but my children and my faith keep me going daily. I haven't been home for almost 4 months now and my parent’s hide-a-bed is over 20 years old, but at least I have a place to lay my head down. I really miss my house and everything in it. I just want to go home so bad. I miss taking walks in my neighborhood, mowing my lawn and spending time dinking around in my garage. It is funny the little things you miss and appreciate when you don’t have them or lose them and the big things you thought you couldn't live without or didn’t want to live with out, you could give up in a second. Every day when I would come home from work Ally would greet me and say "daddies home, daddies home" she would then have to go find the rest of the family to make sure they knew I was home. I would give anything for that again. I have to go; this is too hard right now. I will write more later. God I need you!

Hello out there!

How is everyone? It's been a while (almost 2 months). I can’t believe that it is fall already. Can’t really say that I'm too excited. It use to be my favorite time of year, but with everything going on in my life right now I can’t say I have a favorite time of year anymore, maybe I will again someday. The kids are back in school and loving it. I have the most wonderful children in the word, no really I do. For those of you that read this, if anyone does. You might not know but my wife decided to divorce and leave me after almost 10 years of marriage and 12 years of being together. It is really hard for me and I never thought that I would be spending the rest of my life without her. We had are rough times, but I always thought that God would keep us together, even if we didn't deserve it. I know he is still in control, but it is hard, very hard. I actually miss her very much, but there is nothing I can do about that. My family is pretty devastated and not sure what to do. Miranda was their daughter just as much as I'm their son. My parents loved and love her more than she will ever know. They always treated her as their daughter and always will. I admire them for that, not too many "in-laws" would do that. Even though the pain I feel is so excruciating, I would do it all over again just to have my babies. I will always remember the great times and vacations we had as a family, the birth of our kids and the memories of moving to our first real house and bringing Ally home to it. Those are wonderful and no one can ever take those memories away from me. I know that I need to keep going on with my life, but for right now it is not easy. Only God can provide what I need right now. Miranda's family has been great and actually I don’t think she has a clue to how much they love and miss her. Anyways, I better go. I'm sure I will write another blog sometime, maybe within 2 months this time ;).

PS
This is a verse I have tried to think about daily: Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths"

Also, I have had to try to understand and put into play the following in my life "let go and let God". Sometimes that easier said then done, but very necessary.

Church!

Church was absolutely wonderful today. Barry had a great message and worship was beautiful. We sang perfect songs and the holly spirit was really in the building today. Anyone reading this blog out there I encourage you to come visit New Harvest, I think you will really enjoy it. We will be having out first Sunday service at the new church (the old First Baptist church on Portland rd, right next the I5) on August 31.

Barry thank you so much for everything you do and the man you are. You are such an incredible person and man of God. I know that God has everything in his control and I can’t begin to thank the church enough and what it means to have a church family and be involved in it.

God is good!